4 posts tagged “help”

A couple of hours ago I became so very distressed, when I went to the living room to close the curtains. I decided not to look at one particular picture on the wall, but somehow I looked straight at it anyway. My heart started beating like hell and I ran away from the room. This sure wasn't the first time. I felt so weird when I started walking towards the room. It could be compared to the situation when you're about to black out. It's a dream kind of like feeling. You know everything is not OK, but you just don't do anything about it, you just try to act normally.

I've got some delusions about things, though I try not to believe them, 'cause they don't make any sense, but still they bother me every day. And this weird, very narcissistic idea - I would be crazy if I fulfilled it just to tie a person to myself, and maybe change his life just a bit too much. Because I know the real me is a person, who doesn't want to hurt anyone.
I also have lots of nightmares and weird dreams.

I'm actually quite afraid.

Who inspires you to be the person you are today?

The people, who I respect and who I want to be like and people who need help. It can mean many things, but I'll tell you what I mean.

I want to be able to help people, who are being slaved or controlled by someone else, who are being bullied at school, who are afraid, who haven't found their place or don't know who they are, who have been beaten or violated (mostly mentally) and so on. I want to go to Africa (for example) to help poor people to survive. I want to stand by those women, who have had to go through genital mutilation (okay, I just simply can't know how horrible it must feel) ... and things like that.

And the people I respect? They are good people. They are talented musicians. They are people that want to make a change. And I want to be just like them.

I'm very worried about my friend. She was about to commit a suicide a couple of days ago, thank God she is still alive. I want to help her the best I can, but I'm a few years younger than she is, so what can I say? I have said what do I think about relationships and things like that, but I guess we are pretty different kind of people.
What can I do to help her? Can I even do anything? Maybe just listen to her?

I don't even get it. What is a reason to kill yourself? There are no reasons to do that. There is not a thing people couldn't get through or learn to live with, if that's what they really want to do. Everyone needs to realize that life is beautiful!

I want to study psychology, so I guess this is a great chance to learn.

There is something I love and whenever I'm depressed or it feels like there's no hope, they make me want to hang on. That's why I know I love them. And that's how strong love really is.

What's holding you back from your dream job?

My age. Yeah, simply. My dream is to be a famous musician and a songwriter (though I don't call it a job, it's a lifestyle) and it's not possible yet because I'm a bit too young, but fortunately I don't need to wait for many years, just a few, maybe two or three years is enough already. When I'm famous, I can't have an effect on what happens in the world and I can make the change and I can't make the other people make a change. That's something I really want to do. That's the meaning of me.

I think when you've got a chance to help and make a difference, that's your responsibility and that's what you gotta do. We're all responsible for those who need help. And when I'm famous and rich - I'm going to do it - I'm going to help people (and animals, too, especially dogs) as much as I possibly can.

And - when I think about it more closely - nothing is holding me back from my dream job. Actually I've got a really good base for it and I actually can do it. Thank you, Karma.